big year

i started the school year pregnant - it was the most difficult pregnancy i had of my three. i felt so awful (physically) that it made me think awful thoughts which then made me feel more awful (psychologically). it was a bad cycle...that feeling passed after 16 weeks

i finally started the dance i had thought about starting for the past 8 years: questions for men

i finished my degree in human sexuality education. my last class was my hardest. i thought about bowing out because i didn't know if i would pass...i have very little confidence in my self about a lot of things...added now to that list is "applied research"

i choreographed the musical for school throughout the last trimester of my pregnancy. the music was impossible. i have a lot of funny recordings of myself dancing out 8 counts in the middle of the night pregnant to you tube recordings of west side story tracks that were probably not in 8s.

eli and i decided to move.
he found a job but we had not found a place to live. this caused a great  deal of stress and tension between us.
i have a lot of feelings and like talking about them. eli does not feel the need to express himself as frequently nor as in-depth as i do. this was a difficult topic for a while - it's one of our biggest challenges - finding the balance between the two of us.

i had baby p - named for my friend, mentor, mother-figure guru peggy. we didn't know we were having a girl, despite being decided on using a p name in peggy's honor. finding out she was a girl once she was born was more emotional than i had anticipated

during my maternity leave from work i taught sex ed classes almost every day with baby p strapped to my body. i loved it.
i also went to look at homes out where we were planning to move. i saw over 30 homes. i joked that we were my realtor's nightmare. that part i didn't love

i realized that with my move i would definitely not be able to keep my current job - the uncertainty of what i would be doing was both exciting and terrifying

we got our house ready to show and sell.
 keeping a house clean with two dogs and three kids is a challenge.

we are now two weeks away from moving. i love the house we have lived in for the past 7 years. we built our family in this house. we built the house itself. when eli got it it was falling apart. together (but mostly eli) we built it into what it is.

i probably forgot something because of my post pregnancy brain
but it's been a busy year