two birds

i have been meaning to post little j's birth story, but i just haven't gotten around to doing it yet...i know i will eventually write it all down in some combination of what actually happened and my memory of it.

for now i wanted to acknowledge this evening - exactly a month after little j came into this world.

so difficult to imagine - the idea of "coming into the world"
where was he before that? little m always asks when looking at older pictures,"where is junot?"
the idea that "he didn't yet exist" is too hard to grasp for her - and for me

we are so lucky to have him now

tonight is also the evening before my fourth wedding anniversary
i had thought about planting little notes all over the house like i have done in years past; in secret places i knew erk would go to throughout the day; inside the coffee press, in the fridge by the cream cheese, on the seat of his truck. somewhere i would leave a more substantial card, maybe a gift

while i thought about doing something similar again this year, it was only a thought. i never got around to doing it...for now the "thought" is what will count.

i have learned that there is value in sharing one's thoughts
so here they are, right before i head off to bed exhausted

erk, i love you.  i am so grateful that we met when and where we did. i love the story of how we met. i love the story we are writing together now.
i love that when we were sitting all together reading books before bedtime this evening m yelled out, "family book time!"

here's to many more chapters