as it turns out, yes

i posed the question "is today the day?" at the forty week mark of my pregnancy, and while little m (not to be confused with the big m at 4321crazymamma.blogspot.com) was not born until the next day, the whole process did in fact start on the day that i wondered...it had already started before i asked the question i suppose.

i feel like i could write an essay about labor; about what it felt like to give birth to a baby; what the expectations i had were and which of those expectations were met and which ones were not. i could probably even write a short book if i included these first few days at home with newborn m. but i'm not quite ready to do that yet...i am still processing so much of what has happened and continues to happen.

erk and i made a person, which on it's own, as a concept, is mind blowing. the process of getting her out of my body and into the world was also, pretty surreal. when i wondered whether that morning of my previous post would be the last of erk and i before we became a family, i didn't really know the full extent to what becoming a family meant - i still don't, but i am learning day by day. and every day, hour and minute i feel an overwhelming sensation of gratitude toward the universe. nature is a mysterious and powerful thing.

thank you, thank you, thank you.